letting go…

I forgive you…..

For all the instances you let me down

For all  the times you weren’t around

For all the paths I walked alone

For all the battles I fought alone

For all the things you did me wrong

For all the pains I carried along

For all the days I longed for you

For all the nights when I was blue

For all the words that were said

For all the tears that I shed

For all the reasons that we fought

For all the blames that I got

For all the apologies that I made

For all the times you betrayed

All those moments that were lost

 And wasted like a melting frost

Are running down my cheeks now

And for one last time, I allow

You to make me feel this way

 

And I forgive you…..

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“…..I’ll be on my way…..”

She knew it was coming,

The sun was sinking in the west

Probably her last, it better be the best

From somewhere in that room, The Beatles play,

As the June light turns to moonlight I’ll be on my way 

She heard them ringing,

In a Church the sound of prayer bells

How she longed to be there, but her heart tells

It was forbidden, why, she would never understand

She only did what many did to her, but they were not banned

She was now playing,

In her mind, the flashback of her life

Which was nothing but a never ending bitter strife

Between right and wrong, pain and pleasure, good and bad

And a wish for the moment, to live the dream that she had always had

She began singing

The songs about friends and false lovers

Who saved their love for under her blanket covers

And, would leave the following morning with a tip or two

Only to be replaced by another, just the same, yet how time flew

She was disappearing

In the darkness around her bed

She closed her eyes, the day is dead

In a corner of the room, The Beatles still play

As the June light turns to moonlight, I’ll be on my way


the price

A shot of bullet, a merciless stab

And a world comes to an end

All it takes is a cold, stony heart

And that one fateful moment

To sweep away one universe

To destroy everything related

A thoughtless act eradicates a life

That was so thoughtfully created

Was it a right? We’ll never know

That ability to decide for others

But was it right? Definitely no

The tragedy that a lame excuse covers

The price of existence has come down to

Money, religion and the need for avenge

Blame it on the anger, pride or lust

Or simply the sweet smell of revenge!

 

 

Broken

The sound of it still lingers

The bits and pieces still scattered

The pain that came, when it shattered

From the eyes, flowing down like a river

Now dried up with the warmth of time

But still cold as ice, in a corner of mind

A revived memory from a forgotten past

An illusion that wouldn’t last

Like a vase, it broke

With one single movement

Never to be the same again

Never would it mend

Ended up on the floor like molecules of dust

Now blown away by the wind, is what I called TRUST

 

I am…..a rose

I was buried deep into the ground

In the dirty wet mud

I was bitten by the bitter snow

As I started to bud

 

I kept quiet as you stepped on me

Or chose to ignore me

I sobbed quietly resting on the womb

Of the earth that bore me

 

I did not ask the rain why it hit me

I knew I needed it to grow

I just listened as you complained

That my growth was too slow

 

I built a barrier of thorns around me

From the wounds that no one saw

And here I stand today…a beautiful rose

As you watch me bloom, with awe!

 

 

whole…..again

I let my feet touch

The damp cold ground

I shut my ears as such

To keep the sound

Of the world aside

And despite the pain

I let the rain

Fall briskly on my skin

Hitting every cell of my being

Drop by drop

Again and again

rain

Completely drenched now

Shivering in the cold

Yet I felt warm somehow

As a divine heat flooded my soul

Making it whole,

Once again….

Injustice

Note: I have been reading and hearing a lot about domestic violence, rape and other forms of injustice towards women and children. I know I won’t be able to capture what goes on inside the minds of these people so this is  just a small attempt. I might have got carried away and mixed my emotions in certain places  but this is purely imaginary.

Time heals the physical and mental pain related to a particular event but the long term impact it leaves on the psychological development and self esteem of the one who goes through it, is hard to cure. I just felt the need to write something from a victim’s point of view, so here it goes:

I can see it coming

An unforgivable act of cruelty

As the darkness wraps around me,

As I lose my sanity……

No, stay away….

You have no right,

Too weak for your strength,

Too tired to fight


I’m pushed to the floor

stripped off and bare,

Do you see the anguish I’m in?

Do you even care?

This cannot be happening

Oh…..please no!!!!

This is intolerable

Please let me go…

The cold is unbearable

More so your touch

I can hardly see, hardly breathe

It hurts so much


I’m trapped, I’m violated,

You seem unaware

Lost in your world of ecstasy,

Leaving my mind filled with despair

Treating me like dirt,

You just leave me there and go

Now that you’ve got what you wanted,

Now that you need me no more


Pay me for the life I lost

In those fifteen minutes that you stole

Don’t worry about my body, it’ll be fine

Pay me for what it takes to mend my soul…………